On Feb 21, 1:37=A0pm, Dreamseeker <Ryu.Sa...@[EMAIL PROTECTED]
> wrote:
> Sorry in advance for this being so long-winded. =A0If you've read any of
> my other posts, you know that's just how I am. =A0A writer at
> heart. };=3Dp
>
> So, you may have noticed that I'm back after my semi-absence which I
> took while trying to work out my doubts. =A0I was confused by the
> contradiction of my draconic and equine traits. =A0I thought, 'I can't
> be both, but which one am I, if I am one at all?'
> During Winter break, while I was visiting my family at the house in
> which I grew up in, something I had never considered before suddenly
> occurred to me.
>
> Are you ready? It's story time!
> \__/
> ^_~
>
> Once upon a time (when I was somewhere between four and five years
> old), my family moved into this wonderful old house. =A0Two levels, the
> bottom one with extremely high ceilings, and a total of eight main
> rooms between the first and second floors. =A0According to couple who
> sold us the house, it had been built where a horse stable used to
> stand. =A0Sure enough, we found some old tools and rusty horse shoes
> buried in the backyard.
> Over the years that I lived there, for as long as I can remember, I
> experienced sightings of strange cats. =A0Usually, I would see them in
> the distance or out of the corner of my eye, and when I looked again,
> they'd be gone. =A0Being a rational child, I might have passed it off as
> a trick of the light or maybe a lock of my own hair fla****ng in my
> peripheral vision. =A0The odd thing was that the cats always looked the
> same. =A0There was a grey tabby and a small white one. =A0Usually I'd
see
> them separately, but I recall at least one clear sighting of the two
> of them sitting together under the black walnut tree in the backyard.
> There was also one incident in which I was sprawled over the arm of a
> couch, looking directly down the stairs with nothing, not even my
> hair, obscuring my vision, and the grey tabby cat appeared clear as
> day, about four steps from the top. =A0It trotted up about three steps,
> coming straight towards me, then disappeared.
> It became even weirder when both my mother and my brother told me, on
> separate occasions, that they had seen a white kitten appear and
> vanish (my brother) or felt a cat kneading their legs when they were
> in bed, but looked to see nothing (my mother). =A0I lost almost all
> doubts that there were a couple of cats haunting me house at that
> point, and I came to the logical conclusion that they had lived in the
> house, or perhaps the stable, before.
> What does this have to do with a dragon-souled acting like a horse,
> you ask?
>
> Well, I was thinking about these ghost cats while taking a bath. =A0I do
> a lot of thinking while bathing, cuz what else is there to do?
> Anyway, I wondered why I had seen stable-cat ghosts but never any sign
> of horse ghosts. =A0Then the idea occurred to me that, just maybe, one
> of those horses had been with me all along.
> Now, rationally, I would argue with myself that I've always loved
> horses, and that simple fact is a much more likely reason for my
> equine nature than being passively possessed by the spirit of an
> actual horse. =A0However, that 'fact' is not. =A0I don't remember this
> myself, because I was too young, but I do remember my mother telling
> me more than once that my first favorite animal was the rabbit.
> Apparently, I adored them. =A0Then, somewhere between the ages of three
> and five, I lost all interest in rabbits and started loving horses
> instead. =A0This train of thought ended with the concept that, just
> possibly, the lingering equine spirit latched onto an impressionable
> young child when she moved into its territory and began to influence
> her, and has been a part of her ever since.
> After coming up with this theory, I asked my parents if they
> remembered exactly when my favorite animal had switched. =A0My mother
> didn't remember, which wasn't surprising in the condition she's in.
> All my father said was that it was probably before I was five.
>
> Still room for doubt, yes, but there always is. =A0I didn't type this
> immediately because I wanted to think about it. =A0It's been a couple
> months now, and the idea definitely seems to fit.
> The entire reason I had an issue with my conflicting aspects was that,
> instead of just wanting to be around horses and ride them like a
> typical horse-lover, I wanted to BE one. =A0Just as with my draconic
> aspect's growling, clawing, phantom limbs, and desperate longing to
> fly, I have several traits and habits reminiscent of a horse.
> 'Cantering' instead of running, tossing my head and flaring my
> nostrils, and generally reacting in very equine-like manners without
> meaning to, plus a yearning, whenever I'm not thinking about flight,
> to gallop on four legs as fast as I can, hear the impact of my hooves,
> and feel the wind in my mane and tail.
> As I said when I first brought up my problem, the equine and dragon
> personalities ****ft and trade off dominance on a regular basis, and
> that caused me quite a bit of uncertainty. =A0I generally felt deep down
> that I was more dragon than horse, but when the horse was at its
> strongest, even that wasn't so clear. =A0This theory, however, seems to
> explain everything and eases my inner turbulence (whew, big words).
>
> So, there you have it. =A0That's the conclusion I've come to and why I'm
> back with as much cheer and confidence as ever. Heyla!
>
> On a completely different note, anyone ever met a dragon by the name
> ofKazaaar? =A0He and I met online by chance, not even knowing what we
> had in common, and are now having a lot of fun together.
>
> --
> Dreamseeker
>
> Bearer of one Ponder Point
> Creator of the Subspace Choklit Pockit
> Owner of a Never-Emptying-Favourite-Drink Flask, an Endless-Cookie-of-
> Doom, a living velvet kitten plush toy, and a Comb of Chaos
> DC2.D~ Gf L12f13t30w W- T Phfltvw Sks,wh Cau Bzz A- Fr- =A0Na Mr---Mv-
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Ohhh, Ohhh! I've heard of him!
And why is that? Iunno, maybe cause, I AM HIM!
*giggles*
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