On Thu, 21 Feb 2008 11:37:47 -0800 (PST), Dreamseeker
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> wrote:
>Sorry in advance for this being so long-winded. If you've read any of
>my other posts, you know that's just how I am. A writer at
>heart. };=p
>
>So, you may have noticed that I'm back after my semi-absence which I
>took while trying to work out my doubts. I was confused by the
>contradiction of my draconic and equine traits. I thought, 'I can't
>be both, but which one am I, if I am one at all?'
>During Winter break, while I was visiting my family at the house in
>which I grew up in, something I had never considered before suddenly
>occurred to me.
>
>Are you ready? It's story time!
>\__/
>^_~
>
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sets next to you, tail curled around someone near and dear to him
and listens intently
>Once upon a time (when I was somewhere between four and five years
>old), my family moved into this wonderful old house. Two levels, the
>bottom one with extremely high ceilings, and a total of eight main
>rooms between the first and second floors. According to couple who
>sold us the house, it had been built where a horse stable used to
>stand. Sure enough, we found some old tools and rusty horse shoes
>buried in the backyard.
>Over the years that I lived there, for as long as I can remember, I
>experienced sightings of strange cats. Usually, I would see them in
>the distance or out of the corner of my eye, and when I looked again,
>they'd be gone. Being a rational child, I might have passed it off as
>a trick of the light or maybe a lock of my own hair fla****ng in my
>peripheral vision. The odd thing was that the cats always looked the
>same. There was a grey tabby and a small white one. Usually I'd see
>them separately, but I recall at least one clear sighting of the two
>of them sitting together under the black walnut tree in the backyard.
>There was also one incident in which I was sprawled over the arm of a
>couch, looking directly down the stairs with nothing, not even my
>hair, obscuring my vision, and the grey tabby cat appeared clear as
>day, about four steps from the top. It trotted up about three steps,
>coming straight towards me, then disappeared.
>It became even weirder when both my mother and my brother told me, on
>separate occasions, that they had seen a white kitten appear and
>vanish (my brother) or felt a cat kneading their legs when they were
>in bed, but looked to see nothing (my mother). I lost almost all
>doubts that there were a couple of cats haunting me house at that
>point, and I came to the logical conclusion that they had lived in the
>house, or perhaps the stable, before.
>What does this have to do with a dragon-souled acting like a horse,
>you ask?
>
>Well, I was thinking about these ghost cats while taking a bath. I do
>a lot of thinking while bathing, cuz what else is there to do?
>Anyway, I wondered why I had seen stable-cat ghosts but never any sign
>of horse ghosts. Then the idea occurred to me that, just maybe, one
>of those horses had been with me all along.
>Now, rationally, I would argue with myself that I've always loved
>horses, and that simple fact is a much more likely reason for my
>equine nature than being passively possessed by the spirit of an
>actual horse. However, that 'fact' is not. I don't remember this
>myself, because I was too young, but I do remember my mother telling
>me more than once that my first favorite animal was the rabbit.
>Apparently, I adored them. Then, somewhere between the ages of three
>and five, I lost all interest in rabbits and started loving horses
>instead. This train of thought ended with the concept that, just
>possibly, the lingering equine spirit latched onto an impressionable
>young child when she moved into its territory and began to influence
>her, and has been a part of her ever since.
>After coming up with this theory, I asked my parents if they
>remembered exactly when my favorite animal had switched. My mother
>didn't remember, which wasn't surprising in the condition she's in.
>All my father said was that it was probably before I was five.
>
>Still room for doubt, yes, but there always is. I didn't type this
>immediately because I wanted to think about it. It's been a couple
>months now, and the idea definitely seems to fit.
>The entire reason I had an issue with my conflicting aspects was that,
>instead of just wanting to be around horses and ride them like a
>typical horse-lover, I wanted to BE one. Just as with my draconic
>aspect's growling, clawing, phantom limbs, and desperate longing to
>fly, I have several traits and habits reminiscent of a horse.
>'Cantering' instead of running, tossing my head and flaring my
>nostrils, and generally reacting in very equine-like manners without
>meaning to, plus a yearning, whenever I'm not thinking about flight,
>to gallop on four legs as fast as I can, hear the impact of my hooves,
>and feel the wind in my mane and tail.
>As I said when I first brought up my problem, the equine and dragon
>personalities ****ft and trade off dominance on a regular basis, and
>that caused me quite a bit of uncertainty. I generally felt deep down
>that I was more dragon than horse, but when the horse was at its
>strongest, even that wasn't so clear. This theory, however, seems to
>explain everything and eases my inner turbulence (whew, big words).
>
>So, there you have it. That's the conclusion I've come to and why I'm
>back with as much cheer and confidence as ever. Heyla!
>
*hugs*
Thankyou for sharing that personal insight
>
>On a completely different note, anyone ever met a dragon by the name
>of Kazaaar? He and I met online by chance, not even knowing what we
>had in common, and are now having a lot of fun together.
Mmmm...nope
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